(二.上) 我在彩虹眷村看到了老伯的岁岁年年。

他就只是靠着昏暗的路灯，一笔一画，没有特别的主题，有的只是他随兴记录下的年年岁岁。每一个角落有作画，每一个角落都有故事。有的也许是希望家人平安团员的心愿，有的写下的也许是自己的信仰，有的，是更多我所不知道的故事。

(一) 出发咯！

"我们在心底防范着别人，同时也被其他人在心底防范着。日子久了，你会忘了，其实人与人之间的信任可以很单纯，很直接。"

（写在前面的话）2011一个人台湾背包环岛15天游记starto!

“每个人在不同的年纪，心里都会有一个梦想，这个梦想无关于年纪，却关乎是否足够珍惜，足够努力。曾经认为最大的障碍是签证，也曾在各路签证专家面前放话“不管用什么办法，不管花多少钱，我只要结果！”。可是当我已经知道了签证OK，机票OK，旅行费OK，赞助商OK，家人也OK的时候，我突然发现，一直不OK的是自己的心。

我们把梦想放在心里有多久了？三年？十年？二十年？梦想，一直是梦想，直到梦想快要变成了幻想的时候，才拿出来挂在天边，仰望星空的时候，也叹息着梦想与现实的距离。“我还没有足够的钱”、“我妈妈会很担心”、“一个人出去遇见坏人怎么办？”“勇敢有神马用，失身了怎么办？”于是我们都空着手跑出来，听别人惊险的故事，看别人刺激的照片，奉上我们艳羡的目光，然后回到自己的小房间里默默感伤。梦想，什么时候变成了一个需要下很大决心才可以完成的事情，为什么不能拔地而起，为什么不能决然长空……”

Happy Graduation. :)

that is it. the final page of my uni life had officially come to an end. million thanks to those who were there for me today, friends, family. also, all of the wishes, and lastly my lovely boy. you guys made me a perfect day and i'm heartily grateful to that.

hereby dedicate the song to the class of 2011, and to every single memory i have with NTU. :)

走样.

什么时候开始一点点

寻常的嘘寒问暖

竟然变得如此稀罕

当初我对爱情的想像

如今全都走了样

等到回头发现

再没有可以相爱的力量

我们能用什么去换

Save Japan.

今天下午到学校上日语课，我的日文sensei对着全班分享对日本311地震海啸事件的感想。她是大阪人，虽然跟这次311没什么关系，但是1995年的Kobe Earthquake （aka 阪神大地震）她倒是真真实实地经历了一遍。她告诉我们当年在避难中心的种种民生情况，举凡食水问题，如厕情形，家里的长辈因为保暖衣物不足，在避难的同时还患上低温症，就算最后疏散灾民的时候也无家可归，只能慢慢重建家园。由始至终，她都用诙谐乐观的语气对我们说话，三言两语带过了那些我们无法想象的难关。“日本は　いま　大変です。本当に　大変です。”(Japan is really going through a rough time now)　”please do anything you can to help Japan. Please do anything you can to help Japan.”到最后的最后，她用很诚恳的表情和语气对我们说了这么句话。这是我第一次亲耳听到一个灾民的感想，而且还是你认识的人，真的觉得很心酸。我相信现在在日本还是在惨况之中，食水电的供应不足，更别提还有失踪的一万多人，他们的家属连想要找回他们的遗体安葬都可能没办法完成。相比之下我们真的幸福很多阿。希望大家在能力以内帮帮日本吧，少买几件衣服，少花点钱在吃饭，不会让你多痛苦，但是多捐一分钱，可能有些人就能多分点食物或多条被单保暖。Save Japan.

Gonna start blogging in 日本語 :(

皆さん　こんにちわ : ) 初めて　日本語で blog を　書くよ : DD

私は　三年　日本語を　勉強きれている、今大学で　日本語のレブル四を　習う。でも、日本語のレブル三は　一年半に　勉強をしたから、もう　沢山忘れた : $　

クラスの友達は　日本語がずっといい、私の日本語は　駄目だから、とても　大変だ。日本語を　話すことが　あまりできじやない。:' (

だから、多分ね、今から　私は　よく　日本語の　練習を　しなければ　ならない！頑張る！！YAY！！

blah blah blah.

just had one japanese test and one korean test today.
and tmrw imma give 5 hours tuition.
full day classes on friday + a super crowded career fair to go to.
just kill me now, please?


p.s. recalled something interesting today.
"if you like me please raise your hand.
if you don't, please raise your standard."

Taiwan 环岛 15-day trip is ON!

I've been wanting to go Taiwan sooooooo baaadly since i was young. and today i finally booked my flight ticket! and it's gonna be a backpacking trip as for my grad trip on my own :DD the highlight of the trip is that i am actually planing to go for couch surfing (沙发客) during the trip, it's something like homestay, you can send requests to all those who offer a couch/bed for travelers from all over the world :) if things go well, then you get to stay over at their houses for free!! if time allows, the hosts might be kind enough to show their guest around :) you can save $$$ and get to know more interesting people at the same time :))  

actually i just got this idea like 24 hours ago, and tadaaa! it's on! at first i was planning to go on the grad trip with a bunch of people, but seems like everybody couldn't really make up their mind on which country to go. meanwhile, i went on to the couch surfing website, connecting with some random members from Taiwan and asking for their advices on the itinerary. one of them sent me a link, a blog which  is about a story of a young girl from Beijing traveled alone to Taiwan, and all the amazingly kind and friendly people that she met there! she looks so tiny in the pictures, yet she has a very big heart to pursuit her dreams. i spent the entire night reading her blogs, at the end, i decided to go for a trip like hers to mark the very end of the16 years of my study life :) although i never been to any trip alone before, her words are so powerful and insightful that give me all the courage that i need. 

quotes from her blog: 

"每个人在不同的年纪，心里都会有一个梦想，这个梦想无关于年纪，却关乎是否足够珍惜，足够努力。曾经认为最大的障碍是签证，也曾在各路签证专家面前放话“不管用什么办法，不管花多少钱，我只要结果！”。可是当我已经知道了签证OK，机票OK，旅行费OK，赞助商OK，家人也OK的时候，我突然发现，一直不OK的是自己的心。

我们把梦想放在心里有多久了？三年？十年？二十年？梦想，一直是梦想，直到梦想快要变成了幻想的时候，才拿出来挂在天边，仰望星空的时候，也叹息着梦想与现实的距离。“我还没有足够的钱”、“我妈妈会很担心”、“一个人出去遇见坏人怎么办？”“勇敢有神马用，失身了怎么办？”于是我们都空着手跑出来，听别人惊险的故事，看别人刺激的照片，奉上我们艳羡的目光，然后回到自己的小房间里默默感伤。梦想，什么时候变成了一个需要下很大决心才可以完成的事情，为什么不能拔地而起，为什么不能决然长空……

年轻的时候，就应该为自己的梦想冲动一次！这样老了之后才能有回忆的东西啊！"

(http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/articlelist_1528394563_9_1.html)

i'm not sure if i am capable of traveling alone, effectively communicating with all the people that i may meet, i'm really not sure of that. but there's one thing that is certain, i dont want to leave a question to myself, wondering if backpacking alone is suitable for me or not, until i never get the chance to find out the answer. sometimes when we know that we are about to make a mistake, we are actually not sure of that. we can only find out that it's really a mistake after we have made the mistake. if i ever want to find out the answer, i believe that this would be the time :)

Valentine's Day ♥ A consumerism conspiracy or a day for romance?

14th of February, a day has been universally celebrated as the Valentine's Day to express our love to our special ones. But to me, it seems to be increasingly over-commercialized with each passing year and has been transformed to an event of exchanging expensive gifts.

Why do we need ONE day to celebrate a love? Shouldn't we do it every day?? Love is too big for us to fit it into a single day :) Expressing to the loved ones that we care is necessary. But it shouldn't be reserved for a single day in the entire year. Feb 14th is just like any other day of the year with no significance to our love story yet we are brainwashed into thinking it is a day of great importance.

Every love story is special, and different! It doesn't need identical greeting cards with clichéd message, identical candlelight dinner, chocolates and roses nor expensive gifts. We certainly don't need frills on that day. Love shouldn't be judged by the monetary value of the pressies that being exchanged. For me, sometimes the most romantic thing to do with the bf is to stay home, cook a dinner together, go for a walk with xiaohei at sunset, and ask the bf to play 15 rounds of Monopoly Deal with me together before bedtime :)   

Anyway please don't get me wrong. I do not hate Valentine's Day. I only hate the hype created by those cards companies, candy companies, flower shops and many other commercial companies to make money on something that come from our hearts. For those who agree with me, still, I suggest you to at least, make some efforts to express your love to your loved ones on that day just in case your partner doesn't think the way we do ;)  No matter you are single, attached or engaged, wishing everybody a Happy Valentine's Day :)

where the miserable life begins :'(

As much as i love and enjoy eating, still, i am sad to say that I AM ON DIET, for good and for REAL this time! i swear :'( Growing concerns on my health issue and also my weight been brought up by the nagging boyfriend frequently enough for me to FINALLY look at the issues seriously. iishh. He was the one who said :" I'll still love you regardless of your body shape. 55 or 60(kg) do not really make a difference." Who knows his unconditioned love comes with all the nagsssssssssssss :/ to be honest being fat doesn't really bother me.. cuz foods are really too good to resist.. but to stop the boyfriend keeping the issues on at me i really have to put in some efforts to lose some weights this time :(

The most popular word/phrase of mine in 2011 is now officially claimed as "I AM HUNGRY". Seriously!! i've been suffer from hunger for like a week! i used to ate a lot, like reaaaaally A LOT. Friends were shocked by the amount of food i can stow away at one meal sometimes.. I could really eat up to over 140% full at a meal.. :$ I'm not proud of that but i just cant help with that. haaaiz. From now on, no more overeating :( that's quite some amounts to cut off :(

Second place shared by fat and fat-free. went to fairprice after giving tuition this evening to refill my fridge.. whatever i bought must go for fat-free :( have to looked at the nutrition tables one by one while selecting... there's nothing much to go for other than salad ingredients and whole grains meals.. vegies, muesli, skim milk, green apples, oats, and even fat-free salad dressing!  On diet plan is neither something easy nor cheap you know :( i heard from a friend that muesli is good if you are looking for something that is really fat-free and stuffing, and it's considered quite tasty as compared to oats.. but the price is "good" too! surprisingly it costs me 8 bucks for a packet but only comes with a little portion like 300 grams perhaps? 

anyway think i need to stop complaining and start working out now :( we'll see how this plan goes :3

Home-made salad as dinner (fortunately it tasted yumm :) )