(二.上) 我在彩虹眷村看到了老伯的岁岁年年。

他就只是靠着昏暗的路灯，一笔一画，没有特别的主题，有的只是他随兴记录下的年年岁岁。每一个角落有作画，每一个角落都有故事。有的也许是希望家人平安团员的心愿，有的写下的也许是自己的信仰，有的，是更多我所不知道的故事。

(一) 出发咯！

"我们在心底防范着别人，同时也被其他人在心底防范着。日子久了，你会忘了，其实人与人之间的信任可以很单纯，很直接。"

（写在前面的话）2011一个人台湾背包环岛15天游记starto!

“每个人在不同的年纪，心里都会有一个梦想，这个梦想无关于年纪，却关乎是否足够珍惜，足够努力。曾经认为最大的障碍是签证，也曾在各路签证专家面前放话“不管用什么办法，不管花多少钱，我只要结果！”。可是当我已经知道了签证OK，机票OK，旅行费OK，赞助商OK，家人也OK的时候，我突然发现，一直不OK的是自己的心。

我们把梦想放在心里有多久了？三年？十年？二十年？梦想，一直是梦想，直到梦想快要变成了幻想的时候，才拿出来挂在天边，仰望星空的时候，也叹息着梦想与现实的距离。“我还没有足够的钱”、“我妈妈会很担心”、“一个人出去遇见坏人怎么办？”“勇敢有神马用，失身了怎么办？”于是我们都空着手跑出来，听别人惊险的故事，看别人刺激的照片，奉上我们艳羡的目光，然后回到自己的小房间里默默感伤。梦想，什么时候变成了一个需要下很大决心才可以完成的事情，为什么不能拔地而起，为什么不能决然长空……”

Happy Graduation. :)

that is it. the final page of my uni life had officially come to an end. million thanks to those who were there for me today, friends, family. also, all of the wishes, and lastly my lovely boy. you guys made me a perfect day and i'm heartily grateful to that.

hereby dedicate the song to the class of 2011, and to every single memory i have with NTU. :)

走样.

什么时候开始一点点

寻常的嘘寒问暖

竟然变得如此稀罕

当初我对爱情的想像

如今全都走了样

等到回头发现

再没有可以相爱的力量

我们能用什么去换

Save Japan.

今天下午到学校上日语课，我的日文sensei对着全班分享对日本311地震海啸事件的感想。她是大阪人，虽然跟这次311没什么关系，但是1995年的Kobe Earthquake （aka 阪神大地震）她倒是真真实实地经历了一遍。她告诉我们当年在避难中心的种种民生情况，举凡食水问题，如厕情形，家里的长辈因为保暖衣物不足，在避难的同时还患上低温症，就算最后疏散灾民的时候也无家可归，只能慢慢重建家园。由始至终，她都用诙谐乐观的语气对我们说话，三言两语带过了那些我们无法想象的难关。“日本は　いま　大変です。本当に　大変です。”(Japan is really going through a rough time now)　”please do anything you can to help Japan. Please do anything you can to help Japan.”到最后的最后，她用很诚恳的表情和语气对我们说了这么句话。这是我第一次亲耳听到一个灾民的感想，而且还是你认识的人，真的觉得很心酸。我相信现在在日本还是在惨况之中，食水电的供应不足，更别提还有失踪的一万多人，他们的家属连想要找回他们的遗体安葬都可能没办法完成。相比之下我们真的幸福很多阿。希望大家在能力以内帮帮日本吧，少买几件衣服，少花点钱在吃饭，不会让你多痛苦，但是多捐一分钱，可能有些人就能多分点食物或多条被单保暖。Save Japan.

Gonna start blogging in 日本語 :(

皆さん　こんにちわ : ) 初めて　日本語で blog を　書くよ : DD

私は　三年　日本語を　勉強きれている、今大学で　日本語のレブル四を　習う。でも、日本語のレブル三は　一年半に　勉強をしたから、もう　沢山忘れた : $　

クラスの友達は　日本語がずっといい、私の日本語は　駄目だから、とても　大変だ。日本語を　話すことが　あまりできじやない。:' (

だから、多分ね、今から　私は　よく　日本語の　練習を　しなければ　ならない！頑張る！！YAY！！

blah blah blah.

just had one japanese test and one korean test today.
and tmrw imma give 5 hours tuition.
full day classes on friday + a super crowded career fair to go to.
just kill me now, please?


p.s. recalled something interesting today.
"if you like me please raise your hand.
if you don't, please raise your standard."

Taiwan 环岛 15-day trip is ON!

I've been wanting to go Taiwan sooooooo baaadly since i was young. and today i finally booked my flight ticket! and it's gonna be a backpacking trip as for my grad trip on my own :DD the highlight of the trip is that i am actually planing to go for couch surfing (沙发客) during the trip, it's something like homestay, you can send requests to all those who offer a couch/bed for travelers from all over the world :) if things go well, then you get to stay over at their houses for free!! if time allows, the hosts might be kind enough to show their guest around :) you can save $$$ and get to know more interesting people at the same time :))  

actually i just got this idea like 24 hours ago, and tadaaa! it's on! at first i was planning to go on the grad trip with a bunch of people, but seems like everybody couldn't really make up their mind on which country to go. meanwhile, i went on to the couch surfing website, connecting with some random members from Taiwan and asking for their advices on the itinerary. one of them sent me a link, a blog which  is about a story of a young girl from Beijing traveled alone to Taiwan, and all the amazingly kind and friendly people that she met there! she looks so tiny in the pictures, yet she has a very big heart to pursuit her dreams. i spent the entire night reading her blogs, at the end, i decided to go for a trip like hers to mark the very end of the16 years of my study life :) although i never been to any trip alone before, her words are so powerful and insightful that give me all the courage that i need. 

quotes from her blog: 

"每个人在不同的年纪，心里都会有一个梦想，这个梦想无关于年纪，却关乎是否足够珍惜，足够努力。曾经认为最大的障碍是签证，也曾在各路签证专家面前放话“不管用什么办法，不管花多少钱，我只要结果！”。可是当我已经知道了签证OK，机票OK，旅行费OK，赞助商OK，家人也OK的时候，我突然发现，一直不OK的是自己的心。

我们把梦想放在心里有多久了？三年？十年？二十年？梦想，一直是梦想，直到梦想快要变成了幻想的时候，才拿出来挂在天边，仰望星空的时候，也叹息着梦想与现实的距离。“我还没有足够的钱”、“我妈妈会很担心”、“一个人出去遇见坏人怎么办？”“勇敢有神马用，失身了怎么办？”于是我们都空着手跑出来，听别人惊险的故事，看别人刺激的照片，奉上我们艳羡的目光，然后回到自己的小房间里默默感伤。梦想，什么时候变成了一个需要下很大决心才可以完成的事情，为什么不能拔地而起，为什么不能决然长空……

年轻的时候，就应该为自己的梦想冲动一次！这样老了之后才能有回忆的东西啊！"

(http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/articlelist_1528394563_9_1.html)

i'm not sure if i am capable of traveling alone, effectively communicating with all the people that i may meet, i'm really not sure of that. but there's one thing that is certain, i dont want to leave a question to myself, wondering if backpacking alone is suitable for me or not, until i never get the chance to find out the answer. sometimes when we know that we are about to make a mistake, we are actually not sure of that. we can only find out that it's really a mistake after we have made the mistake. if i ever want to find out the answer, i believe that this would be the time :)

Valentine's Day ♥ A consumerism conspiracy or a day for romance?

14th of February, a day has been universally celebrated as the Valentine's Day to express our love to our special ones. But to me, it seems to be increasingly over-commercialized with each passing year and has been transformed to an event of exchanging expensive gifts.

Why do we need ONE day to celebrate a love? Shouldn't we do it every day?? Love is too big for us to fit it into a single day :) Expressing to the loved ones that we care is necessary. But it shouldn't be reserved for a single day in the entire year. Feb 14th is just like any other day of the year with no significance to our love story yet we are brainwashed into thinking it is a day of great importance.

Every love story is special, and different! It doesn't need identical greeting cards with clichéd message, identical candlelight dinner, chocolates and roses nor expensive gifts. We certainly don't need frills on that day. Love shouldn't be judged by the monetary value of the pressies that being exchanged. For me, sometimes the most romantic thing to do with the bf is to stay home, cook a dinner together, go for a walk with xiaohei at sunset, and ask the bf to play 15 rounds of Monopoly Deal with me together before bedtime :)   

Anyway please don't get me wrong. I do not hate Valentine's Day. I only hate the hype created by those cards companies, candy companies, flower shops and many other commercial companies to make money on something that come from our hearts. For those who agree with me, still, I suggest you to at least, make some efforts to express your love to your loved ones on that day just in case your partner doesn't think the way we do ;)  No matter you are single, attached or engaged, wishing everybody a Happy Valentine's Day :)

where the miserable life begins :'(

As much as i love and enjoy eating, still, i am sad to say that I AM ON DIET, for good and for REAL this time! i swear :'( Growing concerns on my health issue and also my weight been brought up by the nagging boyfriend frequently enough for me to FINALLY look at the issues seriously. iishh. He was the one who said :" I'll still love you regardless of your body shape. 55 or 60(kg) do not really make a difference." Who knows his unconditioned love comes with all the nagsssssssssssss :/ to be honest being fat doesn't really bother me.. cuz foods are really too good to resist.. but to stop the boyfriend keeping the issues on at me i really have to put in some efforts to lose some weights this time :(

The most popular word/phrase of mine in 2011 is now officially claimed as "I AM HUNGRY". Seriously!! i've been suffer from hunger for like a week! i used to ate a lot, like reaaaaally A LOT. Friends were shocked by the amount of food i can stow away at one meal sometimes.. I could really eat up to over 140% full at a meal.. :$ I'm not proud of that but i just cant help with that. haaaiz. From now on, no more overeating :( that's quite some amounts to cut off :(

Second place shared by fat and fat-free. went to fairprice after giving tuition this evening to refill my fridge.. whatever i bought must go for fat-free :( have to looked at the nutrition tables one by one while selecting... there's nothing much to go for other than salad ingredients and whole grains meals.. vegies, muesli, skim milk, green apples, oats, and even fat-free salad dressing!  On diet plan is neither something easy nor cheap you know :( i heard from a friend that muesli is good if you are looking for something that is really fat-free and stuffing, and it's considered quite tasty as compared to oats.. but the price is "good" too! surprisingly it costs me 8 bucks for a packet but only comes with a little portion like 300 grams perhaps? 

anyway think i need to stop complaining and start working out now :( we'll see how this plan goes :3

Home-made salad as dinner (fortunately it tasted yumm :) )

Happy New Year!!

the last day of 2010. Year 2010 has definitely been awesome :) there were moments ♥

kicked off the year with the celebration of my 22th birthday with my boy :) one problem about long distance relationship is that we always miss out some meaningful and memorable moments whether of him or mine. thanks for being with me this time and the things you'd given up to do so :)

This year i officially done with all the extra-curriculum activities. I have got enough ECA points for my final year accommodation application, so the life of burning the candle at the both ends is not anymore. Finally can get a life!! 

2010 is a year that is very compact. Since the beginning of the 2nd sem of the 3rd year uni life, i got to handle a harder study, apply for summer internship thingy and deal with the dramas that came along with.. 2 days after my final exam immediately reported to ANZ( Australia and New Zealand Bank Corporation Group) where I had full nine weeks of internship, boarded on the flight to Europe on the last day of my internship, spent the remaining summer holidays with my loved ones and returned to the school one day before the term started ahahaha.

What makes 2010 so great one of the important events must be the intern experience at ANZ. Even until today i am still questioning myself that how the heck did i manage to get into a big multinational foreign bank like this?? It was like Alice in wonderland, i was in the real world of banking, explored those investment expertises, had a clearer mind on what i am actually interested in, knew more about myself and my potential, not to mention that i met a bunch of awesome people especially the pretty young ladies in the fx dealing room.. they were like my big sisters alway look out for me, we shared stuffs tgt, a simple tiny thing like annoying orange or wassssssabi could make us laugh, we gossiped like there's no one's business, we invented  emergency codes to back up our bad acts... although we don't get to see each other often but i know the moments with them will always be in my heart :)

Another memorable event, my 40 days Europe trip :) with the loved one we been to the happiest place on earth, witnessed the first victory of Spain in FIFA world cup with hundred thousands of complete strangers. we sang, we cheered, we celebrated :) we also been to the most romantic city Paris, filled with admiration by the magnificent and fascinating  historical world famous buildings and monuments. We explored the historic Praha, strolled across the ancient Charles Bridge, walked through the cobbled narrow streets in the Old Town, enjoyed the stunning architecture and scenery. We also been to the legendary Santorini, seen the one of a kind of her natural beauty, seen the most splendid and romantic Oia sunset, white-washed sky and crystal blue Aegean sea..

Back to reality after the trip, i welcomed the final year of my uni life. Final year can be very relaxing because instead of 6 subjects we used to take, now we only left 3 or 4 subjects for the remaining semesters. Final year can be very busy as well because we are occupied by the stressful final year project. So the latter part of my 2010 is basically about the study and the project. and also the constant travelling between Singapore and KL larr hehe cause the bf is back to Malaysia for good :D i am content :) although most of the times we are still apart but at least we are in the same time zone now :)

The last momento of 2010, the high-strung, destructive, and uncontrollable Xiaohei but always fill me with joys :)

2010 is awesome, i hope 2011 will be a kiss ass year too :) cause after all we all are gonna die in 2010 anyway ;P

My resolution of 2011: to be more appreciative of my loved ones before it's too late. As we age, we tend to take the people around us for granted. We forget to tell them how much they mean to us because we expect that they know :) Also!! hope for the best in the final semester in NTU. In any time soon there will be a new chapter in the book and the future is in our hand :)

When today is gone, be thankful for the moments, and we keep moving on. Thanks for making up my wonderful 2010 and have a happy new year everyone!!

hellow december :)

yewhoooo 3 papers down ^___________________^ went back to kl couple weeks ago as for my study break. in order to improve my study efficiency I had had to go back there because there are too much temptations in my room.. bed is 2 meters away from study desk, the fastest internet connection of ntu network, tons of junk food stored in the cupboard.. :/

personally think that i've prepared well enough for exam this time hehe. the bf might object tho. :( according to what he said i couldn't have stayed focus for more than half an hour.. my defense is,  although it seemed to like i always goyang-goyang and play with xiaohei but i did study a lot okay!!especially when u off to classes and after you went to bed.. look in depth please  :p

i guess i've done pretty well for the first two papers -- Advanced International Finance and Money & Banking :) but the truth is, after 3 years in ntu i still suck in time management!!! i always being too relax at the beginning and spend too much time on the first question and then have to rush thru the remaining three :(  issh luckily at the end of the day i still managed to do pretty well tho hehe. as a quote from a friend, "You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. I plan to study not by finding the perfect A, but by seeing a B+ as a perfection."  B+ is the target!!! /fingers cross 8)

6 more days to go before the last paper-Marketing.. it's a open-book exam think i need to swallow the entire text book up..fighting!!!

p.s. i miss xiaohei sooooo much :( at times i watched at those videos of her when i missing her but ended up missing her even more D':

the smartest dog :)

I have done some researches out of boredom last night. :P that is, the ranking of smartest dog breeds in the world. and I have found something interesting. A study has tested the intelligence standard of over 70 dog breeds base on their ingenuity, ability to solve problem and also their obedience level. they have classified all the dog breeds into 6 categories, 

1. Brightest dog - takes less than 5 repetitions to understand new command
2. Excellent working dog - takes 5 to 10 repetitions
3. Above average - 15 to 25 repetitions
4. Average - 25 to 40 repetitions
5. Fair - 40 to 80 repetitions 
6. Lowest degree - 80 to 100 repetitions or more

So guess who are on the top list?? Xiaohei the Rottie is #9 on the list, Marley the Labrador Retriever is #7, here's come the countdown from #5 to #1.

#5 Doberman

#4 Golden Retriever

#3 German Shepherd

#2 Poodle

#1 Border Collie

Yes, Poodle is @ number 2!! that is really beyond my expectation.. they are also claimed to be the easiest trained dog among all.. there is a video of a poodle who is able to do 16 commands... i was still wondering how did they train this super smart dog.. come on!! tell me how to teach a dog to obey to gun shoot and also to do crawling and massaging???!!!! now it is totally making sense to me..

And as for Border Collie.. if they are trained well enough, their IQ can reach the IQ level of a 8 years-old kid!!! tsk tsk i wish i can a Border Collie to guard and watch my babies someday :P

So we have seen the best.. you might interested in those at the bottom list as well.. :P Chiwawa, Shih tzu  and bull dog seem like appear to be at the lower ranking.. anyway i don't think this make them impossible to train or it doesn't mean that they are dumb.. So don't be sad if your dog is not on the top of the list.. We all love our dog the way they are and believe that they must be the smartest ever :)

The one with the lion

many years ago, back to the time when i was in primary school, i didnt know that raising a tiger or a lion is something that is prohibited and illegal lolx. just thought that they might be just slightly more costly then a doggie or somethin.. once i dreamed about keeping a tiger, as a pet, and only feeding it with watermelons haha so that it would become a vegetarian hahahaha. seems like there's a chance for my dream to come true now haha :D just wondering where to get that fluffy scarf thingy lolx

The one with the ball

没有狗天生就知道捡球和捡飞盘的乐趣

不是你以为你把球丢给它它就会乖乖的跑去捡了然后还给主人

它们只会咬了就占为己有 :/

所以某天下午我决定要教小黑捡球的原理

每一次我把球丢出去，只要她捡起来我就把球从她口中抢走

然后立刻塞一个treat到她嘴里

反复练习之后她也渐渐明白球可以换点心

所以advance level的是她在门外我在门内

一定要她把球捡了丢进门内才能换到点心


最后慢慢练习到只要捡了球就会乖乖交到你手上

门口张这样（铁门得关着）

但是自那日之后听说门口不定时会出现被丢进来的吃剩芒果种子或骨头。

♥ Free Food :]

it's been a very productive week hehehe C:

finally get over my marketing presentations and discussionssssss,

finalized the questionnaire design for my final year project,

done my advance international finance written essay 

half way to finish another money and banking assignment,

only left a singing presentation on next week then i'm presentation&assignment free!! 

woohooo!!i've gotta admire my efficiency :p

had dinner with dancecow舞妞, tapok and juchuan last wednesday

we used to be the HAPPY-WEDNESDAY group(cuz we had dinner tgt every wednesday)

missing our good old days > <

and then when taopok was doing her exchange program in norway juchuan and i became 单飞比较红

okay tat's irrelevant

anyway we had dinner @ billy bombers bugis

it's a american restaurant

the food...hmm. no comments

but i'm pretty sure that i wont visit the restaurant again :$

the dinner was on dancecow and the dessert session after that was on juchuan

good seniors!! and thankiew so much for the free foods hehehe

and besides the free food i had a very good laugh that night :)) ♥

我是小黑的救世主(自认):p

名：小黑
品种：Rottweiler
性别：女

话说小黑开始被带回家饲养后

相隔两个星期我再见到她

当下的疑问是：“eh怎么她一点也没长大反而瘦了？”

这种狗长大的速度很快的呀

还记得我有一次走进间宠物店看到一只两个月大的rottweiler才1.5L的宝特瓶大小

旁边那只三个月大的rottweiler已经是它的三倍以上

结果主人说都照着vet给的instruction来喂她啊

给我一看那个量还真少到可怜 我想小黑吐一次舌头就可以把全部吃下去了

为了怕饿死她我仔细再对照了狗饼包装后面的instruction table

没错 一天应该要喂她400到500g

结果他们只喂它一半不到

所以如果小黑有点良知的话应该好好感谢我终结她两个星期underfeed的悲惨命运 :p

Dedicated to xiao hei :)

我觉得养狗和养小孩差不多

倒不是硬把小孩和狗拿来比较

而是对待他们两种生物一样需要教育，一样需要爱心，一样需要耐心

时间咻的就过了

到你发觉时他们已经不知不觉长大了

基于忙碌的主人要管教李小黑没时间做这个

所以我决定代替它把李小黑的言行记录下来 

也许哪天能博君一笑也说不定 : )

逢上玉照一张

Internet Bullying

不知道你们有没有过类似的经验

和朋友聚餐或出游

一群人开开心心拍了照

结果第二天你log in你的facebook

你的朋友upload一堆你拍坏的照片然后一堆她自己最好看的照片

够会sabo人的

我想这种感觉应该是非常的不爽

更不爽的是upload的人有first mover advantage

只要他一upload上网整个platform人都可以看到

到时候再假惺惺delete那些照片也于事无补

最过分的就是upload了那些照片

再不停的和其他人攻击你的照片

我真的很想大声呐喊

请问我和我男朋友拍照关你屁事

跟我外婆拍照关你屁事

我外婆跟我男朋友说了什么关你屁事

那么爱分享别人的东西

是不是也要考虑到别人的隐私问题

是不是也起码尊重别人是不是也愿意分享那些东西

再怎么亲密的人，对彼此也该有尊重的底线

最难过的是

不管有意或是无意

这些人的确对当时人造成了伤害

然后他们继续躲在电脑前，一点抱歉也没有

你可以说我心眼小我不介意

因为被自己的好朋友sabo

再被你的好朋友，亲人，甚至是你的男朋友的好朋友联合取笑

最重要的是

你的男朋友一声不做，完全没有体会你自己的感受，反而一面倒向他自己的朋友

对不起 这种感觉我过了那么久还是忘不了。